If you could, would you write an autobiography? Would it have anything to say? What would you share with the world? Do you think people would buy it? What would make it unique, over millions of other biographies?

If I were to write a book....in all its honesty, the explanations, the confessions, the insights, the pains, frustrations, achievements, changes, fears and doubts.....
It would be interesting.
I'm not sure if I would open it to the public, or just give it to a select few. And just writing it would be an experience. Looking at myself, examining myself, from all angles, I think it might bring me to an emotional breakdown. You can't look at yourself FULLY, HONESTLY, without feeling a little bad. We all have garbage in our closets.

I have been wronged in so many ways. But I'm sure I've wronged just as much, if not more. Maybe if they heard my story, maybe they can see.

I just went through a friend's old blog....and I was just so overwhelmed with so many memories, good and bad, and...I suddenly felt I had alot to say. And now I feel the need to write.

Maybe that's what I'll do, since I can't sleep. UGH. I have work tomorrow (today, actually) too.

Taking a break from packing....never thought sorting out my desk would be this tiring or take this long.

I was watching/listening to "SMART PEOPLE" while packing....this movie made me LOL. I loved it. Clever...and of course, there's Ellen Page. I liked Thomas Haden Church's role better, though. Also, is that REALLY Dennis Quaid's gut?! Like, REALLY?!

Seriously, SERIOUSLY looking forward to "THE WATCHMEN". Like, SERIOUSSSSSSLY. Other movies...."Appaloosa"....have you seen the trailer? WHATCOWBOYVIGGOWHAT?! And "THE SPIRIT" really didn't attract me with the teaser trailer, but with the new trailer, it has me interested. I have the comics....so I'm thinking about reading them when I find the time. "Nick and Nora's Inifinite Playlist" looks cute too. Iono....movies like that though, like Juno, so overrated. They're enjoyable, but they're not really the works of genius everyone claims them to be. I mean, I think it's more of a new genre at work than genius. Did see "PINEAPPLE EXPRESS", btw. Enjoyable. It's always more fun to watch people when they're high than actually seeing what they're seeing. I heard there's a "SIN CITY 2" coming out.....Haven't seen/heard anything about it yet, but not too interested. I didn't really like the first one....even though it was from Frank Miller....maybe I should watch it again to see if my perspective's changed any. Iono..didn't work with Kill Bill.

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Gotta go finish packing my desk. And then my shoes.

I got my apartment. It's got a different floor plan than the original one (came through some complications) but I like it, all in all.
So, uh, I'm moving in by the 26th of August, so I'm REALLY boxing up everything I have.
If you need to contact me, it's best through LJ, email, and phone.

I know I owe alot of stuff right now, mostly commissions. I'll try to get some done on my laptop between packing. Sorry guys!

Note also my awesome new mood theme.

The first one was checking your credit card balance.

MEMORIZE YOUR CAR LICENSE PLATE NUMBER and don't lose your car registration, though you could order those from the DMV if you happen to lose it.
My bf almost got arrested today because of this. He kind of knew his license plate number so he didn't take notice of it, but it turned out someone had switched his license plates with plates from a stolen car. He never noticed it because it was different only with the last number. And he got pulled over today and almost got arrested for stealing a vehicle.

Also, keep a car parked in your driveway so that it looks like someone's always home.

Also, sorry for not responding. I'm busy with work and packing for the big move.

THE DARK KNIGHT.
Amazing. Nothing else worth saying. This movie had me thoroughly entertained 100% of the time. And the Joker was amazing. I love Christian Bale. The end. I was tired as hell, though.

CAL POLY POMONA ORIENTATION.
Very useful, got lots of resources. I felt like I belonged. It's funny because 75% of the college of agriculture is female. And they're SO helpful. They had actual faculty there to talk to you and help you out. And I always knew it was going to be competitive getting into vet school, but talking to the director and several other doctors made me actually realize and FEEL just how competitive it really it. Talking to real doctors and interacting with real people made me see what I have to do to make it. AND I'M SUPER EXCITED. But signing up for classes was a HORRIBLE ordeal. It took me 3 hours because UCLA classes didn't transfer over as smoothly as everyone else's city college classes. And the ones I could take without prereqs were full. I didn't get the classes I wanted, but I did get classes that I need. Here's my fall schedule:
- Feeds and Feeding: MWF 11-11:50 am
- Feeds and Feeding Lab: W 12-2:50 pm
- Animal Diseases: T 4-6:50 pm
- Drugs and Society: TR 10-11:50 am
- Chemistry: MWF 8-8:50 am
- Chemistry lab: M 12-2:50
I wanted to take intro to vertebrates and invertebrates, but my life science classes didn't completely transfer over, so I have to petition those. And I couldn't take the physics classes I wanted because my math class didn't transfer over. *sigh* And I need to take stats as a major requirement, but I couldn't because again, my math class didnt transfer over. BUT I'M EXCITED. I get to take such exciting classes. I'm thrilled. But I have so much planning to do. *sigh*
And I have to go back and talk to the financial aids office, because I don't have enough money, *sigh*

EPIC EVENT OF THE DAY.
I got a call around 7:00 AM from Western Union, telling me someone was trying to spend $440 from the UK under my card and name. I was like, WTF? No. But I was half asleep so I didn't really comprehend what was fully going on. So I get home later and check my balance, and there was a pending transaction of like $380. So, I called Western Union and they told me the person couldn't get past security, and that I should cancel the card and call the police. I canceled the card. I should get my money back in like 4 days. I haven't called the police. Don't think I need to. But geez, people, ugh. From the UK? Alex theorized someone was using a card number generator and mine popped up. Whatever. My mom told me not to buy from the internet anymore, but I don't think that's it. I just have bad luck.

MESSAGE OF THE DAY:
ALWAYS CHECK YOUR CREDIT CARD BALANCE, even if it's debit or credit. CHECK IT. Keep track of your purchases and make sure you know every item on your transaction list. I know this sounds like common sense, but the task gets mundane after a while and you tend to forget the IMPORTANCE of it.
ALSO, go watch batman.

So I'm back from a long, tiring day....spent almost 4 hours driving to and from the animal shelter. We talked about procedures and crap....and I have to say I'm super excited to start volunteering there, but I don't think I'm gonna go for more than once a week until I move in because it's way too far and way too tiring. It takes almost 2 hours to get there, and that's not counting traffic. But it's really cool because ALL the volunteers get ALL the keys to the shelter, because they work off an honor system, so I'll have a bunch of keys to carry around with me. I love keys. They make me feel important, ahahaha. AND I'll have the keys to my apt soon. In 2 months.

Then, on my drive home, my manager called me and was like, "Why aren't you at work?" and I was totally....WHAT? Turns out I was supposed to work today, but my manager forgot to call me about it. Because last I knew, my supervisor told me not to come in until Saturday. *sigh* Soooo..the manager apologized and told me to come in on Thursday, 4-9:30 PM.
Great and all.
BUT THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY. AND I TOTALLY PLANNED ON GOING TO HURRICANE HARBOR ALL DAY. AND WATCH THE MIDNIGHT SHOWING OF WALL-E.
So, kind of sad, I stopped by Alex's because his house was on the way home...but he was too tired to really acknowledge anything I was saying. He was still half asleep. And I asked him if we could still go Friday, but he said he had to work. Kind of irked me because he only HAS to work on saturday and sunday and he's just going other days of the week for extra cash; totally voluntary. So...I was like...fine. He wanted me to stay longer, but I was pretty devastated at that point so I just headed back home, which took another grand hour.

Was unpleasant, the ride home. Hot, lots of traffic, had to pee, starving, super tired, and felt pretty much shoved aside by the boyfriend.

Now I'm at home, wondering if I should just go tomorrow to Hurricane Harbor with my brother. Alex can't because he has summer school. Oh well for him. Okay, it's decided. I'm going tomorrow.

And I still really want kitties. But i decided at the shelter that I am not going to. It costs $100 each for adoption. And...yeah. No thanks, I don't have that kind of money.

Parents and I went apartment hunting all day today. Ugh. So tiring...and so stressful! We found a couple nice ones...and a couple horrible ones.
But we were referred to a nice place and I paid a holding deposit.
I'm going to move in, first of September!!! I'm SUPEr excited. It's REALLY nice...and although $995/month sounds like ALOT, it's really spacious. Other places, if you want that much space, you have to pay at least $1500. It's 742 square feet. The one we wanted before that was only 450 sq ft and they were asking for $875, so this is like a whole lot more for just shy of $100 more. AND it's RIGHT next to the animal shelter and RIGHT next to Cal Poly Pomona, so it's SUPER convenient.
Here's the floorplan, if you're ever curious. I can't take pictures because I can't move in yet, but this should give you an idea:
http://www.pineclubapts.com/unit_floorplan_details.html?floorplan_id=7228
I haven't been approved yet, because I haven't turned my application in, but I should be okay since my dad is co-signing it as well.

My parents agreed to pay for half for now. Sweet. But I'm seriously gonna try and save up because I hate mooching off of them. And Alex totally laughed and said I was paying way too much. But he hasn't lived in an apartment for a LONG time, and times are changing; what, with all those people getting kicked out of houses and shoved into apartments...

Tomorrow I have to go in to the animal shelter for the 2nd part of training.
And I have to turn in the paperwork for the apartment. Ugh, I hate paperwork.

And I start working on Saturday, for the Bionicle event, hahaha. Sounds epic. I'm actually super nervous about it...because I know the manager is going to pressure me ALOT for the korean customers =/ o well.

Wednesday is like, the only day I have to catch up on commissions. This is terrible.

And it's been like 100+ degrees every day. BLAH.

God damn it. I LOVE TOMATOES. And I am horrified that it is not in the foods I love.
Taco bell has no tomatoes. Chipotle has no tomatoes. MY GOD. UGH. You can't have good salsa without tomatoes.....BLARGH.

I saw "THE HAPPENING" today. Mark Wahlberg's performance was mediocre. The whole movie...he sounded like he was reading off a paper...and that all his sentences were questions but he didn't realize they were until he was halfway through reading aloud the sentence. It was frustrating to watch because he's acted fine in other movies.
I'd have to say this is shyamalan's weakest movie. It was an interesting theory, no doubt. But...I don't know if it was quite big enough for the big screen. I mean, I enjoyed it. It had its suspense and I love Shyamalan's humor. But if you don't like his other movies, don't see this one. It's not one of his best. And he didn't make a cameo in it! Either that, or I didn't notice him.

I totally could've scored some carne asada tonight...but my mom needed me to buy kimchi for her guests tomorrow and the korean market was closing...and kimchi is perishable...so I had to go home. I hate living in Palmdale...so far away from all my friends....and korean markets. Ugh.
This summer is going to be a social drag. Since gas is $4.59 a gallon, my mom won't let me go out to see my sunland/tujunga friends. Only once a week. I can't go far places without me feeling guilty, either. God. I hate money. I hate distance.
And I know I'm going to be seething with jealousy because everyone's gonna be home for the summer....home being Sunland/Tujunga......and Alex is going to be hanging out with everybody except me. He'll only see me once a week. And he has work. And summer school....so it's not likely he'll drive to palmdale very often.

And I'm not in a too painty mood today...I'm tired. And Alex was slighting me when Mike joined the hangout and kind of pissed me off. LIke..wth....the sudden change of attitude totally turned me off. I guess it was better that way because it was easier for me to leave to go get my mom's kimchi. Ugh. Boys are stupid. And they'll never understand why the things they do upset us. And no matter how many times you explain it to them, it's always going to be the same thing.
I guess that's just something one has to learn to deal with when associating with boys. Boys. Not men, BOYS.

I'm thinking of pirating ROSETTA STONE for Korean and Japanese to refine my language abilities. Allen was totally working the spanish one and I felt moltivated.

I need to force myself to paint.

Don't drive half asleep! It's bad!
I almost crashed today, lol, because I merged without looking. Actually, I did, but I didn't see. You know, where you look but you're not really seeing anything?
Weird thing was, I think I FELT the car right before I was going to touch it, kind of like you can feel someone's presence in a room, and I was like....OMG-GIANT-BLACK-SUV-HOW-DID-I-MISS-THAT! Seriously, I was like ONE inch away from merging into that car, although I'm pretty sure it would've been like a tick off an elephant. The yaris is tiny against an SUV.

And then you're embarrassed the rest of the drive because everyone who saw it is stuck in traffic with you.

Turning in my research proposal today. I finished it TWO DAYS before it was due, so I was quite proud. I really like the feeling of doing my work on time. Huh. You'd think I'd do it more often.

RVCA sale this weekend. Totally excited. Totally depressed I have LITERALLY no money...so I'm just going with my bf and a couple friends, hahahaha EPICFAILURE.

I'm not really feeling the crunch of OMG STUDY ITS FINALS TIME! yet. I probably will, when I fall behind my studying schdule....but right now I'm quite on top of it...so...yeahhh...let's see how long that lasts.

What are your thoughts on donating your sperm/eggs?
It could bring in quite the extra pocket money, especially if you're female. Sperm costs about $1,000 a month...but eggs can go up to $20,000. They are more costly to make, of course.

Anyway.....It never came across to me as immoral....But I mentioned it to my mom as a joke about me donating eggs because I can't get a job....and she was aghast and told me not to even think about it.